2015-05-01 - 8:50 p.m.

What did I do? What did I do?!

Was it something I did in another life? I’m innocent in this life. I admit, I’ve done not so good things, but nothing to damn me to a life of being unloved.

Am I so terrible? I know I’m ugly, but I’ve seen others much more ugly than me, loved. Am I so awful? I try to be kind. I admit, I’m not so kind as some. But I’m far kinder than others. Why am I dammned? Why?! WHY?!

I’ve hurt those around me far less than they’ve hurt me. I’m not a mean person at heart. True, I’m not as charitable as some. Then again, I have less to give.

I give my all, and it’s slapped away.

My heart is broken. Not by one person. But by circumstance. By life. How can I survive a lifetime of rejection? Is what I desire too much?

All I want is to love, and be loved. Is that too much?


I’m a good person. Why can’t I be loved? Why?


So, how do you like them apples?

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