2015-05-01 - 8:50 p.m.
What did I do? What did I do?!
Was it something I did in another life? Iâ€™m innocent in this life. I admit, Iâ€™ve done not so good things, but nothing to damn me to a life of being unloved.
Am I so terrible? I know Iâ€™m ugly, but Iâ€™ve seen others much more ugly than me, loved. Am I so awful? I try to be kind. I admit, Iâ€™m not so kind as some. But Iâ€™m far kinder than others. Why am I dammned? Why?! WHY?!
Iâ€™ve hurt those around me far less than theyâ€™ve hurt me. Iâ€™m not a mean person at heart. True, Iâ€™m not as charitable as some. Then again, I have less to give.
I give my all, and itâ€™s slapped away.
My heart is broken. Not by one person. But by circumstance. By life. How can I survive a lifetime of rejection? Is what I desire too much?
All I want is to love, and be loved. Is that too much?
Iâ€™m a good person. Why canâ€™t I be loved? Why?
So, how do you like them apples?